The last sign I saw as I was driving said "Cross Roads."
Yet I did not see a four-way intersection.
I told myself that was really odd,
but I didn't give it a second thought.
My mind was on certain events that had been occurring in my life.
So I drove further and aimlessly wandered the countryside.
I saw green meadows and blue skies.
I saw a cloud that would sometimes form the shape of a person that
I could not place it.
As I drove further I realized that I was lost in thought and had
actually become lost on the road.
I could not help but chuckle at this.
I was looking for a sign to tell me where I was and I noticed one
ahead of me.
As I past by it,
it said, "Cross Roads."
Once again I thought,
I am on a straight country road,
how could I be lost?
Yet I had no idea where I was going.
I could not help but notice how beautiful it was out here in the wide
open spaces of the country.
Once again I looked outwards and saw green meadows and blue skies.
I could not help but notice the same cloud hovering over me with
familiar shape that I could not place.
I had become so engulfed in the moment of being lost on this country
road with the green meadows,
blue skies and a cloud.
That I had forgotten about my problems and why I drove out here.
I had driven out here to waddle in self-pity.
Once again a sign came up that said, "Cross Roads."
I stopped my car and got out and looked at the heavens.
I was trying to amuse myself so I said,
"Are you trying to tell me something."
The cloud that I had been watching turn towards me and came closer.
"Do not be afraid, for I am."
For a split second I thought,
I am what?
Then it hit me like a ton of bricks.
It could only be Jesus or God,
either way the Supreme Being was speaking to me.
The cloud continued to speak and said,
"You are at the Cross Roads of your life.
You can go forward or turn around and go backwards.
By going forward you will seek out the truth of my words and have
Going backwards you will always be at the Cross Roads until you decide
to move forward.
The choice is yours.
Also know this,
you have been at the Cross Roads many times in your life."
The cloud dissipated into nothingness and I was alone again.
For the moment I thought,
did this just happen?
Then I realized once again that self-doubt was sitting in.
The same self-doubt that got me to this point where I am now.
At the Cross Roads of life,
except this time,
the message was personally delivered.
I looked behind me into the abyss of darkness that followed me and
felt it pulling me back through indecision.
I looked ahead of me and saw the green meadows,
blue skies and the cloud that hovered in my life.
I decided to step over to the other side of the Cross Roads and
live my life the way God intended me to.
In my heart I knew there would be other tough moments in life.
But this one I can put behind me,
because I took the first step over to the other side of this Cross
Written by Jlivory